e and looked out。 I had not thought it would be like this。
〃You're not a whore。〃
〃I know it； darling。 But it isn't nice to feel like one。〃 Her voice was dry and flat。
〃This was the best hotel we could get in；〃 I said。 I looked out the window。 Across the square were the lights of the station。 There were carriages going by on the street and I saw the trees in the park。 The lights from the hotel shone on the wet pavement。 Oh； hell； I thought； do we have to argue now？
〃e over here please；〃 Catherine said。 The flatness was all gone out of her voice。 〃e over； please。 I'm a good girl again。〃 I looked over at the bed。 She was smiling。
I went over and sat on the bed beside her and kissed her。
〃You're my good girl。〃
〃I'm certainly yours；〃 she said。
After we had eaten we felt fine； and then after； we felt very happy and in a little time the room felt like our own home。 My room at the hospital had been our own home and this room was our home too in the same way。
Catherine wore my tunic over her shoulders while we ate。 We were very hungry and the meal was good and we drank a bottle of Capri and a bottle of St。 Estephe。 I drank most of it but Catherine drank some and it made her feel splendid。 For dinner we had a woodcock with souffl？potatoes and pur閑 de marron； a salad； and zabaione for dessert。
〃It's a fine room；〃 Catherine said。 〃It's a lovely room。 We should have stayed here all the time we've been in Milan。〃
〃It's a funny room。 But it's nice。〃
〃Vice is a wonderful thing；〃 Catherine said。 〃The people who go in for it seem to have good taste about it。 The red plush is really fine。 It's just the thing。 And the mirrors are very attractive。〃
〃You're a lovely girl。〃
〃I don't know how a room like this would be for waking up in the morning。 But it's really a splendid room。〃 I poured another glass of St。 Estephe。
〃I wish we could do something really sinful；〃 Catherine said。 〃Everything we do seems so innocent and simple。 I can't believe we do anything wrong。〃
〃You're a grand girl。〃
〃I only feel hungry。 I get terribly hungry。〃
〃You're a fine simple girl；〃 I said。
〃I am a simple girl。 No one ever understood it except you。〃
〃Once when I first met you I spent an afternoon thinking how we would go to the Hotel Cavour together and how it would be。〃
〃That was awfully cheeky of you。 This isn't the Cavour is it？〃
〃No。 They wouldn't have taken us in there。〃
〃They'll take us in some time。 But that's how we differ； darling。 I never thought about anything。〃
〃Didn't you ever at all？〃
〃A little；〃 she said。
〃Oh you're a lovely girl。〃
I poured another glass of wine。
〃I'm a very simple girl；〃 Catherine said。
〃I didn't think so at first。 I thought you were a crazy girl。〃
〃I was a little crazy。 But I wasn't crazy in any plicated manner。 I didn't confuse you did I； darling？〃
〃Wine is a grand thing；〃 I said。 〃It makes you forget all the bad。〃
〃It's lovely；〃 said Catherine。 〃But it's given my father gout very badly。〃
〃Have you a father？〃
〃Yes；〃 said Catherine。 〃He has gout。 You won't ever have to meet him。 Haven't you a father？〃
〃No；〃 I said。 〃A step…father。〃
〃Will I like him？〃
〃You won't have to meet him。〃
〃We have such a fine time；〃 Catherine said。 〃I don't take any interest in anything else any more。 I'm so very happy married to you。〃
The waiter came and took away the things。 After a while we were very still and we could hear the rain。 Down below on the street a motor car honked。
〃'But at my back I always hear Time's winged chariot hurrying near；' 〃 I said。
〃I know that poem；〃 Catherine said。 〃It's by Marvell。 But it's about a girl who wouldn't live with a man。〃
My head felt very clear and cold and I wanted to talk facts。
〃Where will you have the baby？〃
〃I don't know。 The best place I can find。〃
〃How will you arrange it？〃
〃The best way I can。 Don't worry； darling。 We may have several babies before the war is over。〃
〃It's nearly time to go。〃
〃I know。 You can make it time if you want。〃
〃No。〃
〃Then don't worry； darling。 You were fine until now and now you're worrying。〃
〃I won't。 How often will you write？〃
〃Every day。 Do they read your letters？〃
〃They can't read English enough to hurt any。〃
〃I'll make them very confusing；〃 Catherine said。
〃But not too confusing。〃
〃I'll just make them a little confusing。〃
〃I'm afraid we have to start to go。〃
〃All right； darling。〃
〃I hate to leave our fine house。〃
〃So do I。〃
〃But we have to go。〃
〃All right。 But we're never settled in our home very long。〃
〃We will be。〃
〃I'll have a fine home for you when you e back。〃
〃Maybe I'll be back right away。〃
〃Perhaps you'll be hurt just a little in the foot。〃
〃Or the lobe of the ear。〃
〃No I want your ears the way they are。〃
〃And not my feet？〃
〃Your feet have been hit already。〃
〃We have to go； darling。 Really。〃
〃All right。 You go first。〃
24
We walked down the stairs instead of taking the elevator。 The carpet on the stairs was worn。 I had paid for the dinner when it came up and the waiter； who had brought it； was sitting on a chair near the door。 He jumped up and bowed and I went with him into the side room and paid the bill for the room。 The manager had remembered me as a friend and refused payment in advance but when he retired he had remembered to have the waiter stationed at the door so that I should not get out without paying。 I suppose that had happened； even with his friends。 One had so many friends in a war。
I asked the waiter to get us a carriage and he took Catherine's package that I was carrying and went out with an umbrella。 Outside through the window we saw him crossing the street in the rain。 We stood in the side room and looked out the window。
〃How do you feel； Cat？〃
〃Sleepy。〃
〃I feel hollow and hungry。〃
〃Have you anything to eat？〃
〃Yes； in my musette。〃
I saw the carriage ing。 It stopped； the horse's head hanging in the rain； and the waiter stepped out； opened his umbrella； and came toward the hotel。 We met him at the door and walked out under the umbrella down the wet walk to the carriage at the curb。 Water was running in the gutter。
〃There is your package on the seat；〃 the waiter said。 He stood with the umbrella until we were in and I had tipped him。
〃Many thanks。 Pleasant journey；〃 he said。 The coachman lifted the reins and the horse started。 The waiter turned away under the umbrella and went toward the hotel。 We drove down the street and turned to the left； then came around to the right in front of the station。 There were two carabinieri standing under the light just out of the rain。 The light shone on their hats。 The rain was clear and transparent against the light from the station。 A porter came out from under the shelter of the station； his shoulders up against the rain。
〃No；〃 I said。 〃Thanks。 I don't need thee。〃
He went back under the shelter of the archway。 I turned to Catherine。 Her face was in the shadow from the hood of the carriage。
〃We might as well say good…by。〃
〃I can't go in？〃
〃No。〃
〃Good…by； Cat。〃
〃Will you tell him the hospital？〃
〃Yes。〃
I told the driver the address to drive to。 He nodded。
〃Good…by；〃 I said。 〃Take good care of yourself and young Catherine。〃
〃Good…by； darli