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〃Some　trust；　please；　Bella。〃　

My　hand　was　in　my　pocket；　curled　tightly　around　the　key。　I　pursed　my　
lips；　deliberated；　then　shook　my　head　with　a　tight　grin。　

〃Nope。　Not　a　chance。〃　

He　raised　his　eyebrows　in　disbelief。　

I　started　to　step　around　him；　heading　for　the　driver's　side。　He　might　
have　let　me　pass　if　I　hadn't　wobbled　slightly。　Then　again；　he　might　not　
have。　His　arm　created　an　inescapable　snare　around　my　waist。　

〃Bella；　I've　already　expended　a　great　deal　of　personal　effort　at　this　
point　to　keep　you　alive。　I'm　not　about　to　let　you　behind　the　wheel　of　a　
vehicle　when　you　can't　even　walk　straight。　Besides；　friends　don't　let　
friends　drive　drunk；〃　he　quoted　with　a　chuckle。　I　could　smell　the　
unbearably　sweet　fragrance　ing　off　his　chest。　

〃Drunk？〃　I　objected。　

〃You're　intoxicated　by　my　very　presence。〃　He　was　grinning　that　playful　
smirk　again。　

〃I　can't　argue　with　that；〃　I　sighed。　There　was　no　way　around　it；　I　
couldn't　resist　him　in　anything。　I　held　the　key　high　and　dropped　it；　
watching　his　hand　flash　like　lightning　to　catch　it　soundlessly。　〃Take　it　
easy　—　my　truck　is　a　senior　citizen。〃　

〃Very　sensible；〃　he　approved。　

〃And　are　you　not　affected　at　all？〃　I　asked；　irked。　〃By　my　presence？〃　

Again　his　mobile　features　transformed；　his　expression　became　soft；　warm。　
He　didn't　answer　at　first；　he　simply　bent　his　face　to　mine；　and　brushed　
his　lips　slowly　along　my　jaw；　from　my　ear　to　my　chin；　back　and　forth。　I　
trembled。　

〃Regardless；〃　he　finally　murmured；　〃I　have　better　reflexes。〃　

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He　could　drive　well；　when　he　kept　the　speed　reasonable；　I　had　to　admit。　
Like　so　many　things；　it　seemed　to　be　effortless　to　him。　He　barely　looked　
at　the　road；　yet　the　tires　never　deviated　so　much　as　a　centimeter　from　
the　center　of　the　lane。　He　drove　onehanded；　holding　my　hand　on　the　seat。　
Sometimes　he　gazed　into　the　setting　sun；　sometimes　he　glanced　at　me　—　my　
face；　my　hair　blowing　out　the　open　window；　our　hands　twined　together。　

He　had　turned　the　radio　to　an　oldies　station；　and　he　sang　along　with　a　
song　I'd　never　heard。　He　knew　every　line。　

〃You　like　fifties　music？〃　I　asked。　

〃Music　in　the　fifties　was　good。　Much　better　than　the　sixties；　or　the　
seventies；　ugh！〃　He　shuddered。　〃The　eighties　were　bearable。〃　

〃Are　you　ever　going　to　tell　me　how　old　you　are？〃　I　asked；　tentative；　not　
wanting　to　upset　his　buoyant　humor。　

〃Does　it　matter　much？〃　His　smile；　to　my　relief；　remained　unclouded。　

〃No；　but　I　still　wonder…〃　I　grimaced。　〃There's　nothing　like　an　unsolved　
mystery　to　keep　you　up　at　night。〃　

〃I　wonder　if　it　will　upset　you；〃　he　reflected　to　himself。　He　gazed　into　
the　sun；　the　minutes　passed。　

〃Try　me；〃　I　finally　said。　

He　sighed；　and　then　looked　into　my　eyes；　seeming　to　forget　the　road　
pletely　for　a　time。　Whatever　he　saw　there　must　have　encouraged　him。　He　
looked　into　the　sun　—　the　light　of　the　setting　orb　glittered　off　his　skin　
in　rubytinged　sparkles　—　and　spoke。　

〃I　was　born　in　Chicago　in　1901。〃　He　paused　and　glanced　at　me　from　the　
corner　of　his　eyes。　My　face　was　carefully　unsurprised；　patient　for　the　
rest。　He　smiled　a　tiny　smile　and　continued。　〃Carlisle　found　me　in　a　
hospital　in　the　summer　of　1918。　I　was　seventeen；　and　dying　of　the　Spanish　
influenza。〃　

He　heard　my　intake　of　breath；　though　it　was　barely　audible　to　my　own　
ears。　He　looked　down　into　my　eyes　again。　

〃I　don't　remember　it　well　—　it　was　a　very　long　time　ago；　and　human　
memories　fade。〃　He　was　lost　in　his　thoughts　for　a　short　time　before　he　
went　on。　〃I　do　remember　how　it　felt；　when　Carlisle　saved　me。　It's　not　an　
easy　thing；　not　something　you　could　forget。〃　

〃Your　parents？〃　

〃They　had　already　died　from　the　disease。　I　was　alone。　That　was　why　he　
chose　me。　In　all　the　chaos　of　the　epidemic；　no　one　would　ever　realize　I　
was　gone。〃　

〃How　did　he…　save　you？〃　

A　few　seconds　passed　before　he　answered。　He　seemed　to　choose　his　words　
carefully。　

〃It　was　difficult。　Not　many　of　us　have　the　restraint　necessary　to　
acplish　it。　But　Carlisle　has　always　been　the　most　humane；　the　most　
passionate　of　us…　I　don't　think　you　could　find　his　equal　throughout　
all　of　history。〃　He　paused。　〃For　me；　it　was　merely　very；　very　painful。〃　

I　could　tell　from　the　set　of　his　lips；　he　would　say　no　more　on　this　
subject。　I　suppressed　my　curiosity；　though　it　was　far　from　idle。　There　
were　many　things　I　needed　to　think　through　on　this　particular　issue；　
things　that　were　only　beginning　to　occur　to　me。　No　doubt　his　quick　mind　

had　already　prehended　every　aspect　that　eluded　me。　

His　soft　voice　interrupted　my　thoughts。　〃He　acted　from　loneliness。　That's　
usually　the　reason　behind　the　choice。　I　was　the　first　in　Carlisle's　
family；　though　he　found　Esme　soon　after。　She　fell　from　a　cliff。　They　
brought　her　straight　to　the　hospital　morgue；　though；　somehow；　her　heart　
was　still　beating。〃　

〃So　you　must　be　dying；　then；　to　bee…〃　We　never　said　the　word；　and　I　
couldn't　frame　it　now。　

〃No；　that's　just　Carlisle。　He　would　never　do　that　to　someone　who　had　
another　choice。〃　The　respect　in　his　voice　was　profound　whenever　he　spoke　
of　his　father　figure。　〃It　is　easier　he　says；　though；〃　he　continued；　〃if　
the　blood　is　weak。〃　He　looked　at　the　nowdark　road；　and　I　could　feel　the　
subject　closing　again。　

〃And　Emmett　and　Rosalie？〃　

〃Carlisle　brought　Rosalie　to　our　family　next。　I　didn't　realize　till　much　
later　that　he　was　hoping　she　would　be　to　me　what　Esme　was　to　him　—　he　was　
careful　with　his　thoughts　around　me。〃　He　rolled　his　eyes。　〃But　she　was　
never　more　than　a　sister。　It　was　only　two　years　later　that　she　found　
Emmett。　She　was　hunting　—　we　were　in　Appalachia　at　the　time　—　and　found　a　
bear　about　to　finish　him　off。　She　carried　him　back　to　Carlisle；　more　than　
a　hundred　miles；　afraid　she　wouldn't　be　able　to　do　it　herself。　I'm　only　
beginning　to　guess　how　difficult　that　journey　was　for　her。〃　He　threw　a　
pointed　glance　in　my　direction；　and　raised　our　hands；　still　folded　
together；　to　brush　my　cheek　with　the　back　of　his　hand。　

〃But　she　made　it；〃　I　encouraged；　looking　away　from　the　unbearable　beauty　
of　his　eyes。　

〃Yes；〃　he　murmured。　〃She　saw　something　in　his　face　that　made　her　strong　
enough。　And　they've　been　together　ever　since。　Sometimes　they　live　
separately　from　us；　as　a　married　couple。　But　the　younger　we　pretend　to　
be；　the　longer　we　can　stay　in　any　given　place。　Forks　seemed　perfect；　so　
we　all　enrolled　in　high　school。〃　He　laughed。　〃I　suppose　we'll　have　to　go　
to　their　wedding　in　a　few　years；　again。〃　

〃Alice　and　Jasper？〃　

〃Alice　and　Jasper　are　two　very　rare　creatures。　They　both　developed　a　
conscience；　as　we　refer　to　it；　with　no　outside　guidance。　Jasper　belonged　
to　another…　family；　a　very　different　kind　of　family。　He　became　depressed；　
and　he　wandered　on　his　own。　Alice　found　him。　Like　me；　she　has　certain　
gifts　above　and　beyond　the　norm　for　our　kind。〃　

〃Really？〃　I　interrupted；　fascinated。　〃But　you　said　you　were　the　only　one　
who　could　hear　people's　thoughts。〃　

〃That's　true。　She　knows　other　things。　She　sees　things　—　things　tha