1 twilight暮色- 第62部分

〃Because　it　would　be　too　hard　for　you；　if　I　were　that…　close？〃　

〃That's　certainly　a　problem。　But　that's　not　what　I　was　thinking　of。　It's　
just　that　you　are　so　soft；　so　fragile。　I　have　to　mind　my　actions　every　
moment　that　we're　together　so　that　I　don't　hurt　you。　I　could　kill　you　
quite　easily；　Bella；　simply　by　accident。〃　His　voice　had　bee　just　a　
soft　murmur。　He　moved　his　icy　palm　to　rest　it　against　my　cheek。　〃If　I　was　
too　hasty…　if　for　one　second　I　wasn't　paying　enough　attention；　I　could　
reach　out；　meaning　to　touch　your　face；　and　crush　your　skull　by　mistake。　
You　don't　realize　how　incredibly　breakable　you　are。　I　can　never；　never　
afford　to　lose　any　kind　of　control　when　I'm　with　you。〃　

He　waited　for　me　to　respond；　growing　anxious　when　I　didn't。　〃Are　you　
scared？〃　he　asked。　

I　waited　for　a　minute　to　answer；　so　the　words　would　be　true。　〃No。　I'm　
fine。〃　

He　seemed　to　deliberate　for　a　moment。　〃I'm　curious　now；　though；〃　he　said；　
his　voice　light　again。　〃Have　you　ever…　？〃　He　trailed　off　suggestively。　

〃Of　course　not。〃　I　flushed。　〃I　told　you　I've　never　felt　like　this　about　
anyone　before；　not　even　close。〃　

〃I　know。　It's　just　that　I　know　other　people's　thoughts。　I　know　love　and　
lust　don't　always　keep　the　same　pany。〃　

〃They　do　for　me。　Now；　anyway；　that　they　exist　for　me　at　all；〃　I　sighed。　

〃That's　nice。　We　have　that　one　thing　in　mon；　at　least。〃　He　sounded　
satisfied。　

〃Your　human　instincts…〃　I　began。　He　waited。　〃Well；　do　you　find　me　
attractive；　in　that　way；　at　all？〃　

He　laughed　and　lightly　rumpled　my　nearly　dry　hair。　

〃I　may　not　be　a　human；　but　I　am　a　man；〃　he　assured　me。　

I　yawned　involuntarily。　

〃I've　answered　your　questions；　now　you　should　sleep；〃　he　insisted。　

〃I'm　not　sure　if　I　can。〃　

〃Do　you　want　me　to　leave？〃　

〃No！〃　I　said　too　loudly。　

He　laughed；　and　then　began　to　hum　that　same；　unfamiliar　lullaby；　the　
voice　of　an　archangel；　soft　in　my　ear。　

More　tired　than　I　realized；　exhausted　from　the　long　day　of　mental　and　
emotional　stress　like　I'd　never　felt　before；　I　drifted　to　sleep　in　his　
cold　arms。　

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15。　THE　CULLENS　




The　muted　light　of　yet　another　cloudy　day　eventually　woke　me。　I　lay　with　
my　arm　across　my　eyes；　groggy　and　dazed。　Something；　a　dream　trying　to　be　
remembered；　struggled　to　break　into　my　consciousness。　I　moaned　and　rolled　
on　my　side；　hoping　more　sleep　would　e。　And　then　the　previous　day　
flooded　back　into　my　awareness。　

〃Oh！〃　I　sat　up　so　fast　it　made　my　head　spin。　

〃Your　hair　looks　like　a　haystack…　but　I　like　it。〃　His　unruffled　voice　
came　from　the　rocking　chair　in　the　corner。　

〃Edward！　You　stayed！〃　I　rejoiced；　and　thoughtlessly　threw　myself　across　
the　room　and　into　his　lap。　In　the　instant　that　my　thoughts　caught　up　with　
my　actions；　I　froze；　shocked　by　my　own　uncontrolled　enthusiasm。　I　stared　
up　at　him；　afraid　that　I　had　crossed　the　wrong　line。　

But　he　laughed。　

〃Of　course；〃　he　answered；　startled；　but　seeming　pleased　by　my　reaction。　
His　hands　rubbed　my　back。　

I　laid　my　head　cautiously　against　his　shoulder；　breathing　in　the　smell　of　
his　skin。　

〃I　was　sure　it　was　a　dream。〃　

〃You're　not　that　creative；〃　he　scoffed。　

〃Charlie！〃　I　remembered；　thoughtlessly　jumping　up　again　and　heading　to　
the　door。　

〃He　left　an　hour　ago　—　after　reattaching　your　battery　cables；　I　might　
add。　I　have　to　admit　I　was　disappointed。　Is　that　really　all　it　would　take　
to　stop　you；　if　you　were　determined　to　go？〃　

I　deliberated　where　I　stood；　wanting　to　return　to　him　badly；　but　afraid　I　
might　have　morning　breath。　

〃You're　not　usually　this　confused　in　the　morning；〃　he　noted。　He　held　his　
arms　open　for　me　to　return。　A　nearly　irresistible　invitation。　

〃I　need　another　human　minute；〃　I　admitted。　

〃I'll　wait。〃　

I　skipped　to　the　bathroom；　my　emotions　unrecognizable。　I　didn't　know　
myself；　inside　or　out。　The　face　in　the　mirror　was　practically　a　stranger　
—　eyes　too　bright；　hectic　spots　of　red　across　my　cheekbones。　After　I　
brushed　my　teeth；　I　worked　to　straighten　out　the　tangled　chaos　that　was　
my　hair。　I　splashed　my　face　with　cold　water；　and　tried　to　breathe　
normally；　with　no　noticeable　success。　I　halfran　back　to　my　room。　

It　seemed　like　a　miracle　that　he　was　there；　his　arms　still　waiting　for　
me。　He　reached　out　to　me；　and　my　heart　thumped　unsteadily。　

〃Wele　back；〃　he　murmured；　taking　me　into　his　arms。　

He　rocked　me　for　a　while　in　silence；　until　I　noticed　that　his　clothes　
were　changed；　his　hair　smooth。　

〃You　left？〃　I　accused；　touching　the　collar　of　his　fresh　shirt。　

〃I　could　hardly　leave　in　the　clothes　I　came　in　—　what　would　the　neighbors　
think？〃　

I　pouted。　

〃You　were　very　deeply　asleep；　I　didn't　miss　anything。〃　His　eyes　gleamed。　
〃The　talking　came　earlier。〃　

I　groaned。　〃What　did　you　hear？〃　

His　gold　eyes　grew　very　soft。　〃You　said　you　loved　me。〃　

〃You　knew　that　already；〃　I　reminded　him；　ducking　my　head。　

〃It　was　nice　to　hear；　just　the　same。〃　

I　hid　my　face　against　his　shoulder。　

〃I　love　you；〃　I　whispered。　

〃You　are　my　life　now；〃　he　answered　simply。　

There　was　nothing　more　to　say　for　the　moment。　He　rocked　us　back　and　forth　
as　the　room　grew　lighter。　

〃Breakfast　time；〃　he　said　eventually；　casually　—　to　prove；　I'm　sure；　that　
he　remembered　all　my　human　frailties。　

So　I　clutched　my　throat　with　both　hands　and　stared　at　him　with　wide　eyes。　
Shock　crossed　his　face。　

〃Kidding！〃　I　snickered。　〃And　you　said　I　couldn't　act！〃　

He　frowned　in　disgust。　〃That　wasn't　funny。〃　

〃It　was　very　funny；　and　you　know　it。〃　But　I　examined　his　gold　eyes　
carefully；　to　make　sure　that　I　was　forgiven。　Apparently；　I　was。　

〃Shall　I　rephrase？〃　he　asked。　〃Breakfast　time　for　the　human。〃　

〃Oh；　okay。〃　

He　threw　me　over　his　stone　shoulder；　gently；　but　with　a　swiftness　that　
left　me　breathless。　I　protested　as　he　carried　me　easily　down　the　stairs；　
but　he　ignored　me。　He　sat　me　right　side　up　on　a　chair。　

The　kitchen　was　bright；　happy；　seeming　to　absorb　my　mood。　

〃What's　for　breakfast？〃　I　asked　pleasantly。　

That　threw　him　for　a　minute。　

〃Er；　I'm　not　sure。　What　would　you　like？〃　His　marble　brow　puckered。　

I　grinned；　hopping　up。　

〃That's　all　right；　I　fend　for　myself　pretty　well。　Watch　me　hunt。〃　

I　found　a　bowl　and　a　box　of　cereal。　I　could　feel　his　eyes　on　me　as　I　
poured　the　milk　and　grabbed　a　spoon。　I　sat　my　food　on　the　table；　and　then　
paused。　

〃Can　I　get　you　anything？〃　I　asked；　not　wanting　to　be　rude。　

He　rolled　his　eyes。　〃Just　eat；　Bella。〃　

I　sat　at　the　table；　watching　him　as　I　took　a　bite。　He　was　gazing　at　me；　
studying　my　every　movement。　It　made　me　selfconscious。　I　cleared　my　mouth　
to　speak；　to　distract　him。　

〃What's　on　the　agenda　for　today？〃　I　asked。　

〃Hmmm…〃　I　watched　him　frame　his　answer　carefully。　〃What　would　you　say　to　
meeting　my　family？〃　

I　gulped。　

〃Are　you　afraid　now？〃　He　sounded　hopeful。　

〃Yes；〃　I　admitted；　how　could　I　deny　it　—　he　could　see　my　eyes。　

〃Don't　worry。〃　He　smirked。　〃I'll　protect　you。〃　

〃I'm　not　afraid　of　them；〃　I　explained。　〃I'm　afraid　they　won't…　like　me。　
Won't　they　be；　well；　surprised　that　yo