around him。 To fort him。
And then his head snapped up。
“Well； you’re not the only one capable of selfsacrifice；” he said； his voice stronger。 “Two can play at that
game。”
“What？”
“I’ve behaved pretty badly myself。 I’ve made this much harder for you than I needed to。 I could have
given up with good grace in the beginning。 But I hurt you； too。”
“This is my fault。”
“I won’t let you claim all the blame here； Bella。 Or all the glory either。 I know how to redeem myself。”
“What are you talking about？” I demanded。 The sudden； frenzied light in his eyes frightened me。
He glanced up at the sun and then smiled at me。 “There’s a pretty serious fight brewing down there。 I
don’t think it will be that difficult to take myself out of the picture。”
His words sank into my brain； slowly； one by one； and I couldn’t breathe。 Despite all my intentions to cut
Jacob out of mylife pletely； I didn’t realize until that precise second exactly how deep the knife would
have to go to do it。
“Oh； no； Jake！ No； no no no；” I choked out in horror。 “No； Jake； no。 Please； no。” My knees began to
tremble。
“What’s the difference； Bella？ This will only make it more convenient for everyone。 You won’t even have
to move。”
“No！” My voice got louder。 “No； Jacob！ I won’t let you！”
“How will you stop me？” he taunted lightly； smiling to take the sting out of his tone。
“Jacob； I’m begging you。 Stay with me。” I would have fallen to my knees； if I could have moved at all。
“For fifteen minutes while I miss a good brawl？ So that you can run away from me as soon as you think
I’m safe again？ You’ve got to be kidding。”
“I won’t run away。 I’ve changed my mind。 We’ll work something out； Jacob。 There’s always a
promise。 Don’t go！”
“You’re lying。”
“I’m not。 You know what a terrible liar I am。 Look in my eyes。 I’ll stay if you do。”
His face hardened。 “And I can be your best man at the wedding？”
It was a moment before I could speak； and still the only answer I could give him was； “Please。”
“That’s what I thought；” he said； his face going calm again； but for the turbulent light in his eyes。
“I love you； Bella；” he murmured。
“I love you； Jacob；” I whispered brokenly。
He smiled。 “I know that better than you do。”
He turned to walk away。
“Anything；” I called after him in a strangled voice。 “Anything you want； Jacob。 Just don’t do this！”
He paused； turning slowly。
“I don’t really think you mean that。”
“Stay；” I begged。
He shook his head。 “No； I’m going。” He paused； as if deciding something。 “But I could leave it to fate。”
“What do you mean？” I choked out。
“I don’t have to do anything deliberate — I could just do my best for my pack and let what happens
happen。” He shrugged。 “If you could convince me you really did want me to e back — more than you
wanted to do the selfless thing。”
“How？” I asked。
“You could ask me；” he suggested。
“e back；” I whispered。 How could he doubt that I meant it？
He shook his head； smiling again。 “That’s not what I’m talking about。”
It took me a second to grasp what he was saying； and all the while he was looking at me with this superior
expression — so sure of my reaction。 As soon as the realization hit； though； I blurted out the words without
stopping to count the cost。
“Will you kiss me； Jacob？”
His eyes widened in surprise； then narrowed suspiciously。 “You’re bluffing。”
“Kiss me； Jacob。 Kiss me； and then e back。”
He hesitated in the shadow； warring with himself。 He halfturned again to the west； his torso twisting away
from me while his feet stayed planted where they were。 Still looking away； he took one uncertain step in my
direction； and then another。 He swung his face around to look at me； his eyes doubtful。
I stared back。 I had no idea what expression was on my face。
Jacob rocked back on his heels； and then lurched forward； closing the distance between us in three long
strides。
I knew he would take advantage of the situation。 I expected it。 I held very still — my eyes closed； my
fingers curled into fists at my sides — as his hands caught my face and his lips found mine with an eagerness
that was not far from violence。
I could feel his anger as his mouth discovered my passive resistance。 One hand moved to the nape of my
neck； twisting into a fist around the roots of my hair。 The other hand grabbed roughly at my shoulder； shaking
me； then dragging me to him。 His hand continued down my arm； finding my wrist and pulling my arm up
around his neck。 I left it there； my hand still tightly balled up； unsure how far I could go in my desperation to
keep him alive。 All the while his lips； disconcertingly soft and warm； tried to force a response out of mine。
As soon as he was sure I wouldn’t drop my arm； he freed my wrist； his hand feeling its way down to my
waist。 His burning hand found the skin at the small of my back； and he yanked me forward； bowing my body
against his。
His lips gave up on mine for a moment； but I knew he was nowhere close to finished。 His mouth followed
the line of my jaw； and then explored the length of my neck。 He freed my hair； reaching for my other arm to
draw it around his neck like the first。
Then both of his arms were constricted around my waist； and his lips found my ear。
“You can do better than this； Bella；” he whispered huskily。 “You’re overthinking it。”
I shivered as I felt his teeth graze my earlobe。
“That’s right；” he murmured。 “For once； just let yourself feel what you feel。”
I shook my head mechanically until one of his hands wound back into my hair and stopped me。
His voice turned acidic。 “Are you sure you want me to e back？ Or did you really want me to die？”
Anger rocked through me like the whiplash after a heavy punch。 That was too much — he wasn’t fighting
fair。
My arms were already around his neck； so I grabbed two fistfuls of his hair — ignoring the stabbing pain
in my right hand — and fought back； struggling to pull my face away from his。
And Jacob misunderstood。
He was too strong to recognize that my hands； trying to yank his hair out by the roots； meant to cause him
pain。 Instead of anger； he imagined passion。 He thought I was finally responding to him。
With a wild gasp； he brought his mouth back to mine； his fingers clutching frantically against the skin at my
waist。
The jolt of anger unbalanced my tenuous hold on selfcontrol； his unexpected； ecstatic response overthrew
it entirely。 If there had been only triumph； I might have been able to resist him。 But the utter defenselessness of
his sudden joy cracked my determination； disabled it。 My brain disconnected from my body； and I was kissing
him back。 Against all reason； my lips were movingwith his in strange； confusing ways they’d never moved
before — because I didn’t have to be careful with Jacob； and he certainly wasn’t being careful with me。
My fingers tightened in his hair； but I was pulling him closer now。
He was everywhere。 The piercing sunlight turned my eyelids red； and the color fit； matched the heat。 The
heat was everywhere