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Sam　looked　at　Carlisle　with　a　softer　expression。　〃As　Edward　pointed　out；　we　don't　have　the　same　kind　
of　freedom　that　you　have。　Renesmee　is　as　much　as　part　of　our　family　now　as　she　is　yours。　Jacob　cannot　
abandon　her；　and　we　cannot　abandon　him。〃　His　eyes　flickered　to　Alice's　note；　and　his　lips　pressed　into　a　
thinline。　

〃You　don't　know　her；〃　Edward　said。　

〃Do　you？〃　Sam　asked　bluntly。　

Carlisle　put　a　hand　on　Edward's　shoulder。　〃We　have　much　to　do；　son。　Whatever　Alice's　decision；　we　
would　be　foolish　not　to　follow　her　advice　now。　Let's　go　home　and　get　to　work。〃　

Edward　nodded；　his　face　still　rigid　with　pain。　Behind　me；　I　could　hear　Esme's　quiet；　tearless　sobs。　

I　didn't　know　how　to　cry　in　this　body；　I　couldn't　do　anything　but　stare。　There　was　no　feeling　yet。　
Everything　seemed　unreal；　like　I　was　dreaming　again　after　all　these　months。　Having　a　nightmare。　

〃Thank　you；　Sam；〃　Carlisle　said。　

〃I'm　sorry；〃　Sam　answered。　〃We　shouldn't　have　let　her　through。〃　

〃You　did　the　right　thing；〃　Carlisle　told　him。　〃Alice　is　free　to　do　what　she　will。　I　wouldn't　deny　her　that　
liberty。〃　

I'd　always　thought　of　the　Cullens　as　a　whole；　an　indivisible　unit。　Suddenly；　I　remembered　that　it　had　not　
always　been　so。　Carlisle　had　created　Edward；　Esme；　Rosalie　and　Emmett；　Edward　had　created　me。　We　
were　physically　linked　by　blood　and　venom。　I　never　thought　of　Alice　and　Jasper　as　separate—as　
adopted　into　the　family。　But　in　truth；　Alice　had　adopted　the　Cullens。　She　had　shown　up　with　her　
unconnected　past；　bringing　Jasper　with　his；　and　fit　herself　into　the　family　that　was　already　there。　Both　she　
and　Jasper　had　known　another　life　outside　the　Cullen　family。　Had　she　really　chosen　to　lead　another　new　
life　after　she'd　seen　that　life　with　the　Cullens　was　over？　

We　were　doomed；　then；　weren't　we？　There　was　no　hope　at　all。　Not　one　ray；　one　flicker　that　might　have　
convinced　Alice　she　had　a　chance　at　our　side。　

The　bright　morning　air　seemed　thicker　suddenly；　blacker；　as　if　physically　darkened　by　my　despair。　

〃I'mnot　going　down　without　a　fight；〃　Emmett　snarled　low　under　his　breath。　〃Alice　told　us　what　to　do。　
Let's　get　it　done。〃　

The　others　nodded　with　determined　expressions；　and　I　realized　that　they　were　banking　on　whatever　
chance　Alice　had　given　us。　That　they　were　not　going　to　give　in　to　hopelessness　and　wait　to　die。　




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Yes；　we　all　would　fight。　What　else　was　there？　And　apparently　we　would　involve　others；　because　Alice　
had　said　so　before　she'd　left　us。　How　could　we　not　follow　Alice's　last　warning？　The　wolves；　too；　would　
fight　with　us　for　Renesmee。　

We　would　fight；　they　would　fight；　and　we　all　would　die。　

I　didn't　feel　the　same　resolve　the　others　seemed　to　feel。　Alice　knew　the　odds。　She　was　giving　us　the　only　
chance　she　could　see；　but　the　chance　was　too　slim　for　her　to　bet　on　it。　

I　felt　already　beaten　as　I　turned　my　back　on　Sam's　critical　face　and　followed　Carlisle　toward　home。　

We　ran　automatically　now；　not　the　same　panicked　hurry　as　before。　As　we　neared　the　river；　Esme's　head　
lifted。　

〃There　was　that　other　trail。　It　was　fresh。〃　

She　nodded　forward；　toward　where　she　had　called　Edward's　attention　on　the　way　here。　While　we　were　
racing　to　save　Alice。。。　

〃It　has　to　be　from　earlier　in　the　day。　It　was　just　Alice；　without　Jasper；〃　Edward　said　lifelessly。　

Esme's　face　puckered；　and　she　nodded。　

I　drifted　to　the　right；　falling　a　little　behind。　I　was　sure　Edward　was　right；　but　at　the　same　time。。。　After　all；　
how　had　Alice's　note　ended　up　on　a　page　from　my　book？　

〃Bella？〃　Edward　asked　in　an　emotionless　voice　as　I　hesitated。　

〃I　want　to　follow　the　trail；〃　I　told　him；　smelling　the　light　scent　of　Alice　that　led　away　from　her　earlier　flight　
path；　i　was　new　to　this；　but　it　smelled　exactly　the　same　to　me；　just　minus　the　scent　of　Jasper。　

Edward's　golden　eyes　were　empty。　〃It　probably　just　leads　back　to　the　house。〃　

〃Then　I'll　meet　you　there。〃　

At　first　I　thought　he　would　let　me　go　alone；　but　then；　as　I　moved　a　few　steps　away；　his　blank　eyes　
flickered　to　life。　

〃I'll　e　with　you；〃　he　said　quietly。　〃Well　meet　you　at　home；　Carlisle。〃　

Carlisle　nodded；　and　the　others　left。　I　waited　until　they　were　out　of　sight；　and　then　I　looked　at　Edward　
questioningly。　

〃I　couldn't　let　you　walk　away　from　me；〃　he　explained　in　a　low　voice。　〃It　hurt　just　to　imagine　it。〃　

I　understood　without　more　explanation　than　that。　I　thought　of　being　divided　from　him　now　and　realized　I　
would　have　felt　the　same　pain；　no　matter　how　short　the　separation。　

There　was　so　little　time　left　to　be　together。　

I　held　my　hand　out　to　him；　and　he　took　it。　



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〃Let's　hurry；〃　he　said。　〃Renesmee　will　be　awake。〃　

I　nodded；　and　we　were　running　again。　

It　was　probably　a　silly　thing；　to　waste　the　time　away　from　Renesmee　just　for　curiosity's　sake。　But　the　
note　bothered　me。　Alice　could　have　carved　the　note　into　a　boulder　or　tree　trunk　if　she　lacked　writing　
utensils。　She　could　have　stolen　a　pad　of　Postits　from　any　of　the　houses　by　the　highway。　Why　my　book？　
When　did　she　get　it？　

Sure　enough；　the　trail　led　back　to　the　cottage　by　a　circuitous　route　that　stayed　far　clear　of　the　Cullens'　
house　and　the　wolves　in　the　nearby　woods。　Edward's　brows　tightened　in　confusion　as　it　became　obvious　
where　the　trail　led。　

He　tried　to　reason　it　out。　〃She　left　Jasper　to　wait　for　her　and　came　here？〃　

We　were　almost　to　the　cottage　now；　and　I　felt　uneasy。　I　was　glad　to　have　Edward's　hand　in　mine；　but　I　
also　felt　as　if　I　should　be　here　alone。　Tearing　out　the　page　and　carrying　it　back　to　Jasper　was　such　an　odd　
thing　for　Alice　to　do。　It　felt　like　there　was　a　message　in　her　action—one　I　didn't　understand　at　all。　But　it　
was　my　book；　so　the　message　must　be　for　me。　If　it　were　something　she　wanted　Edward　to　know；　
wouldn't　she　have　pulled　a　page　from　one　of　his　

books。。。　？　

〃Give　me　just　a　minute；〃　I　said；　pulling　my　hand　free　as　we　got　to　the　door。　

His　forehead　creased。　〃Bella？〃　

〃Please？　Thirty　seconds。〃　

I　didn't　wait　for　him　to　answer。　I　darted　through　the　door；　pulling　it　shut　behind　me。　I　went　straight　to　the　
bookshelf。　Alice's　scent　was　fresh—less　than　a　day　old。　A　fire　that　I　had　not　set　burned　low　but　hot　in　the　
fireplace。　I　yanked　The　Merchant　of　Venice　off　the　shelf　and　flipped　it　open　to　the　title　page。　

There；　next　to　the　feathered　edge　left　by　the　torn　page；　under　the　words　The　Merchant　of　Venice　by　
William　Shakespeare；　was　a　note。　

Destroy　this。　

Below　that　was　a　name　and　an　address　in　Seattle。　

When　Edward　came　through　the　door　after　only　thirteen　seconds　rather　than　thirty；　I　was　watching　the　
book　burn。　

〃What's　going　on；　Bella？〃　

〃She　was　here。　She　ripped　a　page　out　of　my　book　to　write　her　note　on。〃　

〃Why？〃　

〃I　don't　know　why。〃　



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〃Why　are　you　burning　it？〃　

〃I—I—〃　I　frowned；　letting　all　my　frustration　and　pain　show　on　my　face。　I　did　not　know　what　Alice　was　
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