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Maybe　if　you　stopped　resisting。。。；Embry　whispered。　

Just　focus　on　our　part。　The　big　ones。　We　can　take　them　down。　We　own　them！Quil　was　working　himself　
up—like　a　pep　talk　before　a　big　game。　

I　could　see　how　easy　it　would　be—to　think　about　nothing　more　than　my　part。　It　wasn't　hard　to　imaging　
attacking　Jasper　and　Emmett。　We'd　been　close　to　that　before。　I'd　thought　of　them　as　enemies　for　a　very　
long　time。　I　could　do　that　now　again。　

I　just　had　to　forget　that　they　were　protecting　the　same　thing　I　would　protect。　I　had　to　forget　the　reason　
why　I　might　want　them　to　win。。。。　

Jake；Embry　warned。　Keep　your　head　in　the　game。　

My　feet　moved　sluggishly；　pulling　against　the　drag　of　the　strings。　

There's　no　point　fighting　it；Embry　whispered　again。　

He　was　right。　I　would　end　up　doing　what　Sam　wanted；　if　he　was　willing　to　push　it。　And　he　was。　
Obviously。　

There　was　a　good　reason　for　the　Alpha's　authority。　Even　a　pack　as　strong　as　ours　wasn't　much　of　a　
force　without　a　leader。　We　had　to　move　together；　to　think　together；　in　order　to　be　effective。　And　that　
required　the　body　to　have　a　head。　

So　what　if　Sam　was　wrong　now？　There　was　nothing　anyone　could　do。　No　one　could　dispute　his　
decision。　

Except。　

And　there　it　was—a　thought　I'd　never；　never　wanted　to　have。　But　now；　with　my　legs　all　tied　up　in　strings；　
I　recognized　the　exception　with　relief—more　than　relief；　with　a　fierce　joy。　

No　one　could　dispute　the　Alpha's　decision—except　for　me。　

I　hadn't　earned　anything。　But　there　were　things　that　had　been　born　in　me；　things　that　I'd　left　unclaimed。　

I'd　never　wanted　to　lead　the　pack。　I　didn't　want　to　do　it　now。　I　didn't　want　the　responsibility　for　all　our　
fates　resting　on　my　shoulders。　Sam　was　better　at　that　than　I　would　ever　be。　



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But　he　was　wrong　tonight。　

And　I　had　not　been　born　to　kneel　to　him。　

The　bonds　fell　off　my　body　the　second　that　I　embraced　my　birthright。　

I　could　feel　it　gathering　in　me；　both　a　freedomand　also　a　strange；　hollow　power。Hollow　because　an　
Alpha's　power　came　from　his　pack；　and　I　had　no　pack。　For　a　second；　loneliness　overwhelmed　me。　

I　had　no　pack　now。　

But　I　was　straight　and　strong　as　I　walked　to　where　Sam　stood；　planning　with　Paul　and　Jared。　He　turned　
at　the　sound　of　my　advance；　and　his　black　eyes　narrowed。　

Ao；　I　told　him　again。　

He　heard　it　right　away；　heard　the　choice　that　I'd　made　in　the　sound　of　the　Alpha　voice　in　my　thoughts。　

He　jumped　back　a　half　step　with　a　shocked　yelp。　

Jacob？　What　have　you　done？　

I　won't　follow　you；　Sam。　Not　for　something　so　wrong。　

He　stared　at　me；　stunned。　You　would。。。　you　would　choose　your　enemies　over　your　family？　

They　aren't—I　shook　my　head；　clearing　it—　they　aren't　our　enemies。　They　never　have　been。　Until　I　
really　thought　about　destroying　them；　thought　it　through；　I　didn't　see　that。　

This　isn't　about　them；he　snarled　at　me。　This　is　about　Bella。　She　has　never　been　the　one　for　you；　she　
has　never　chosen　you；　but　you　continue　to　destroy　your　life　for　her！　

They　were　hard　words；　but　true　words。　I　sucked　in　a　big　gulp　of　air；　breathing　them　in。　

Maybe　you're　right。　But　you're　going　to　destroy　the　pack　over　her；　Sam。　No　matter　how　many　of　them　
survive　tonight；　they　will　always　have　murder　on　their　hands。　

We　have　to　protect　our　families！　

I　know　what　you've　decided；　Sam。　But　you　don't　decide　for　me；　not　anymore。　

Jacob—　you　can't　turn　your　back　on　the　tribe。　

I　heard　the　double　echo　of　his　Alpha　mand；　but　it　was　weightless　this　time。　It　no　longer　applied　to　
me。　He　clenched　his　jaw；　trying　to　force　me　to　respond　to　his　words。　

I　stared　into　his　furious　eyes。　Ephraim　Black's　son　was　not　born　to　follow　Levi　Uley's。　

Is　this　it；　then；　JacobBlack？　His　hackles　rose　and　his　muzzle　pulled　back　from　his　teeth。　Paul　and　Jared　
snarled　and　bristled　at　his　sides。　Even　if　you　can　defeat　me；　the　pack　will　never　follow　you！　



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Now　jerked　back；　a　surprised　whine　escaping　my　throat。　

Defeat　you？　I'm　not　going　to　fight　you；　Sam。　

Then　what's　your　plan？　I'm　not　stepping　aside　so　that　you　can　protect　the　vampire　spawn　at　the　tribe's　
expense。　

I'm　not　telling　you　to　step　aside。　

If　you　order　them　to　follow　you—　

'　never　take　anyone's　will　away　from　him。　

His　tail　whipped　back　and　forth　as　he　recoiled　from　the　judgment　in　my　words。　Then　he　took　a　step　
forward　so　that　we　were　toe　to　toe；　his　exposed　teeth　inches　from　mine。　I　hadn't　noticed　till　this　moment　
that　I'd　grown　taller　than　him。　

There　cannot　be　more　than　one　Alpha。　The　pack　has　chosen　me。　Will　you　rip　us　apart　tonight？　Will　you　
turn　on　your　

brothers？　Or　will　you　end　this　insanity　and　join　us　again？Every　word　was　layered　with　mand；　but　it　
couldn't　touch　me。　Alpha　blood　ran　undiluted　in　my　veins。　

Icould　see　why　there　was　never　more　than　one　Alpha　male　in　a　pack。　My　body　was　responding　to　the　
challenge。　I　could　feel　the　instinct　to　defend　my　claim　rising　in　me。　The　primitive　core　of　my　wolfself　
tensed　for　the　battle　of　supremacy。　

I　focusedall　my　energy　to　control　that　reaction。　I　would　not　fall　into　a　pointless；　destructive　fight　with　
Sam。　He　was　my　brother　still；　even　though　I　was　rejecting　him。　

There　is　only　one　Alpha　for　this　pack。　I'm　not　contesting　that　I'm　just　choosing　to　go　my　own　way。　

Do　you　belong　to　acoven　now；　Jacob？　

I　flinched。　

　don't　know；　Sam。　But　I　do　know　this—　

He　shrunk　back　as　he　felt　the　weight　of　the　Alpha　in　my　tone。　It　affected　him　more　than　his　touched　me。　
Because　I　had　been　born　to　lead　him。　

　will　stand　between　you　and　the　Cullens。　I　won't　just　watch　while　the　pack　kills　innocent—it　was　
hard　to　apply　that　word　to　vampires；　but　it　was　true—　people。　The　pack　is　better　than　that。　Lead　
them　in　the　right　direction；　Sam。　

I　turned　my　back　on　him；　and　a　chorus　of　howls　tore　into　the　air　around　me。　

Digging　my　nails　into　the　earth；　I　raced　away　from　the　uproar　I'd　caused。　I　didn't　have　much　time。　At　
least　Leah　was　the　only　one　with　a　prayer　of　outrunning　me；　and　I　had　a　head　start。　




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The　howling　faded　with　the　distance；　and　I　took　fort　as　the　sound　continued　to　rip　apart　the　quiet　
night。　They　weren't　after　me　yet。　

I　had　to　warn　the　Cullens　before　the　pack　could　get　it　together　and　stop　me。　If　the　Cullens　were　
prepared；it　might　give　Sam　a　reason　to　rethink　this　before　it　was　too　late。　I　sprinted　toward　the　white　
house　Istill　hated；　leaving　my　home　behindme。　Home　didn't　belong　to　me　anymore。　I'd　turned　my　back　
on　it。　

Today　had　begun　like　any　other　day。　Made　it　home　from　patrol　with　the　rainy　sunrise；　breakfast　with　
Billy　and　Rachel；　bad　TV；　bickering　withPaul。。。　How　did　it　change　so　pletely；　turn　all　surreal？　How　
did　everything　get　messed　up　and　twisted　so　that　I　was　here　now；　all　alone；　an　unwilling　Alpha；　cut　off　
from　my　brothers；　choosing　vampires　over　them？　

The　sound　I'd　been　fearing　interrupted　my　dazed　thoughts—